Midnight Silhouette V1 /

I love you?/ Wednesday, December 14, 2005

i'm so fucking depress.

crying non-stop as i type this.

i'm going bersek n might jump down any moment.

it's all my mom's fault.

if yesterday she does not declined the aunty's offer,

i will not be feeling so downright awful now.

the aunty told me to consider 1 day,

and this morning i purposely wake up early,

calling her to say i am willing to take up the job,

but wat happened,

she say they have hire another staff!

what the fuck.

see it's all my mum!

i hate her.

so wat if u think i'm unfilial.

i hate my mum means i hate my mum.

she have destroyed my working opportunity.

the aunty,i hate her too.

if she dun want to hire me,

then dun tell me to consider.

idiot, dun create hopes for me.

the previous interview,

andy hired qiudan,

i'm aready v sad.

alright,i'm not blamming qiudan.

and now what,the aunty hired another person.

it's a double blow to me.

it makes me so emotional unstable and my ego is bruised.

it's so damm difficult to search for a job,

there r many people competting w u.

so if u wanted a job so badly,

dun hesistant n go against all odds.

or else u will miss a great chance

n feel sucidial like me.

so dun make the same stupid mistake like me,

by saying i will consider n let my mum meddle in my affairs.

just faster agree,or else ur job opportunity will be snatched away.

take away all my sorrow n pains.

just feel so sick.

Where were you when skies were grey
Wednesday, December 14, 2005 <3

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